I found this video on YouTube and it is something that I know I have felt before especially with that song. The song is David Crowder* Band’s “O Praise Him” and it’s fantastic.

It’s 1 o’clock in the morning… I have class at 10, and I can’t sleep. Please understand that this is a first for me other than when I’m about to take a big trip that I’ve been looking forward to for months or something of that sort. Tomorrow (or today, if you must) is just another day in the neighborhood for me, except… I’m trying to change my life completely on this ever-so-average day. When I say I’m trying to change my life completely, I truly mean to say that I’m refreshing myself because I’ve been in a slump and lately the only thing that has opened my eyes faster than those blinds you pull down and let go of to watch snap to the ceiling and spin around 20 times while Mom tells you to QUIT IT is moving. Honestly, I never knew the real world although I thought I did until I moved. For those of you who don’t know, I have moved into an apartment with my step-sister and am learning that life will now be pile driving me with one more bill for the rest of my life…RENT. Within this move that occurred a little over a week ago has come the neighbors from the surrounding apartments and all their life longs stories, thoughts, beliefs and addictions and all those things are now inches away from me instead of feet. One person, in particular, has struck my heart with a scalding nail from the life they lead. I won’t mention much, but this person has the mindset and leads a life that includes regular sex with people more than half their age (sometimes needing consent forms for their actions) and then booting them as quickly as they met, consistently unnecessary comments towards the present company of the other sex and the unnatural blabbing of the sickness from which they suffer and yet seemingly praise. I don’t bring any of this up to say anything about myself or to make myself look so good, no, I bring all this to the forefront of my blog because I feel a need to reach out and grab his heart and tug. I feel God moving so deeply inside of me to do something by doing nothing…kinda. Nothing can mean a lot of things to a lot of people, in this case I’m referring to doing something by being myself and shining the light of God through my actions as to allow this person to question what drives me to have the strength to make the kind of decisions I do. My decisions lately have included telling this person that I cannot help/work with/or even speak to the next project that this person has, which is to create a porn site. This person knows my skills and knows where hitting most people would work…the wallet, they promise me a cut of the site’s profit and feel it could easily amount to $10,000 rather quickly. With the amount of nonchalance that the previous subject is brought about, I give my short and sweet answer…no. When poked and prodded on why, I don’t just preach at this person, I instead explain to them, my beliefs, morals and principles for which I live my life and that somewhat astounds this person while maing them ask why, and that’s how I try to plant the seed. I don’t know why I’m blogging all of this out to you in cyberspace, and I know there’s a lot more to say on the subject, but I guess the point of this entry is to broadcast my turning point. I want to live my life to do nothing more than what God wants for me and for my life, I want praise to be my habit and I want to worship in all I do.

Well, I completed my first actual Photoshop project today and I am now becoming addicted to Photoshop and hope to keep pumping out good stuff like this. Sorry, but I’m just really proud of the end product. You can check out my other work for my html class here. Comment about it and lemme know what you think…